Where is the calm, I’m asking?
Those reading regularly may have noticed that there’s not a lot that comes out on this blog about the topic ‘calm’. In fact, if you go an click the button calm at the top – yep, I dare you – then you’ll actually only find one entry there. It’s about meditation failure. About now we should probably be saying mediation nosedive.
M told me this morning that maybe because I am sleeping so much better – not doing quite so much work at 3am in the morning – that maybe I don’t need to do it. There’s a fundamental misunderstanding about why one would meditate revealed there but I’m not picky, and M ALWAYS looks on the bright side, so you have to give credit for that.
It’s not like I’m here in the middle of raging seas or anything (I chose that metaphor; better make full use of it), but clearly my be-calmed but not calm state is obvious even to the Buddhist couple who walk their dogs in the local park. They no longer ask how meditation’s going, they just ask after Alfy and Mondoe.
You know, I’m trying for a little balance here. And at least I’m warming to the idea. Previously I just used to think balance = boring = give up the highs and lows, peaks and troughs, but actually there’s a lot to recommend it.
In fact, just last week I not only worked my arse off, but also managed to go to one very interesting dinner to hear a business woman speak, one lovely big business lunch and a couple of seminars. I DID miss out on the Medecin sans Frontieres presentation event about something which was a bummer but I had to go back and do more work. I HAD been out playing all day after all. And I reckon that was a balance of work and work-related fun…and it didn’t feel too damn bad.
It has occurred to me that I was NEVER motivated to do that when I was back working in corporate slavery…even though colleagues did. Usually the ladder-climbers though. Some of those people need all the help they can get after all. Medicority sure does need networking.
Ok, enough of this muttering, I away, to walk the dogs, work, do my back exercises (more on that later) but no meditation today …
